Well, it's Monday, for sure, all day long. It seems that there are many people in my life (myself included) going through tough times. I worry about all of us. I miss some things from my past that I don't have anymore.

Right now, the only positive things in my life are my children, and with one of them being 12, somedays I can't count that as a positive, lol. She really is a light in my life, but somedays, her desire to be grown up and opinionated drives me crazy.

I had a panic attack last night, and another one this morning. My H is a jerk. But last night during my panic attack he actually came into the room with me and had me lay my head on his chest while he stroked my hair. SHOCKER! That hadn't happened in forever. Of course he was in quest for something *else*, but I fell asleep. I'm sorry but one day of good deeds doesn't warrant a turnaround in our marriage. Tomorrow is our wedding anniversary. I haven't done anything, not even purchased a greeting card, and I have no plans to do so. You know, Hallmark doesn't make a card that says "Happy Anniversary Jackass....I would have rather had the donkey". LOL.

My nerves are shot, my baby keeps me awake half of the night. I'm a walking zombie and my body is really telling me about it! Okay, I'll try to come out from under the black cloud now. I hope you have a wonderful day too. Aloha!